Flashbacks

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I woke up early today for Ezra’s recognition day. He received eleven awards! Wow, I was really amazed on what the Lord has worked on his life. And what He will and can do in the coming years. God is just wonderful. 

After the program, the family went to the mall and had lunch at Yakimix. Well, i was not on turbo mode since I have limited my food choices for fasting. I must say, His grace was sufficient for controlling my appetite. God is serious in my fast. 

This partial fast has been helpful to hear from the Lord. And have my heart open on what the Spirit is saying. 

Yesterday, God brought me back to 2008. I accidentally opened  an email, which was my journal assignment to Tita Oss. 

It refreshed my memory of the beautiful times and moments I had when I was starting in the journey to Zion. The passion, the hunger, the intensity were just overflowing in the stories. 

Then today, God brought me to a 2008  blog, “The Beauty Of Waiting“. I wrote there my experience on waiting for God’s open door for a new work. 

Honestly, I can’t believe I was able to write down the experience very clearly. How I received a word at the beginning of the year, encountered open doors, waited and waited some more, until God paved the way for His chosen door, at the end of the year, I got to the company where I am still today.  This encouraged me on what I am going through and waiting these days.

This word. I received. It’s not leaving me, thus I will wait on the Lord. 

He will be faithful to fulfill what He has promised. Yes, even that first covenant He gave 10 years ago. I know He is able to do it, and even surpass all the possibilities I have ever imagined.

2008 was historical. Let’s see if it will be the same for 2015. 

What’s My Message? 

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So I’m back to my dusty old blog site. I realize that I still want to keep this quiet space, amidst all the other social apps (that I have currently deleted and/or inactivated).

I still like writing and sharing my thoughts and stories through blog. It’s vintage and classy. :) 

So in other news, it’s been a week now since I went hiatus on Facebook. I felt the need to somehow regulate the information that I am taking in and also, the messages I am sending out. 

There’s just too many information in social media that I don’t need, spiritually speaking. If I would use Philippians 4:8 – “Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.” as my filter, then I would probably have less than 10 news on my feeds.

On the other hand, I am also checking myself, on what message I am sending to the brethren,whenever I post. Does it pass Philippians 4:8? Do I have the right motive? Is God glorified? 

My discipler once told me that a powerful message is not in eloquence of words or speech, but it is the life of the person that declares the message. 

How we live, move and have our being are powerful messages that people read from us. 

In social media, every like, every share, every comment is a brush stroke in my personal canvass, my life’s message. 

Thus, I need to step back and ponder. 

What message do I want to convey? 

(And the answer to that question, will probably on the next post.)  :) 

Disconnected

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This morning my phone decided to take a sick leave.

After several trial of turning it ON, I gave up and accepted that I do not have a phone for today, thus disconnected from my outlook, sms, viber and all the other applications to connect with people.

It was a different morning. No mails, no notifications. I went straight to my prayer closet and spent a longer time with the Lord. Thrilled with the Lord’s sweet fellowship. Lately, I’m getting more comfortable in waiting quietly in His presence. After reading His word, I’m spending a little more time in meditating and trying to have more connection with God.

Actually, before my phone shut off this morning, I have decided to delete my social apps. There’s just this deeper longing for consecration so I could hear more from the Lord. It’s been very helpful. I am not distracted from notifications and posts from different people. I get to breathe and choose the thoughts that enters my mind. There’s more time and room for His words to rest and settle in my being.

So going back to my phone, there was a real feeling of being disconnected from my family and friends. I felt incomplete for the day, as if I left a body part in the house.

But there was also perfect peace in my heart, and surrender to yield to that experience of being disconnected. I tried to allow my spirit to connect with God and ask Him what He wanted to teach me on this experience.

It was as if God was telling me that that should be my feeling (and even more) whenever I don’t go to my prayer closet and/or connect with Him. I should feel disoriented and incomplete.

I should keep and maintain my connected with Him. I can lose all my connections, except with Him.

Tomorrow, I will  bring my phone to the service center and hope that it gets well. While I also bring my heart and devotion to a commitment to have a regular communion with God. :)

Fullness Of Time

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Making known to us the mystery (secret) of His will (of His plan, of His purpose). [And it is this:] In accordance with His good pleasure (His merciful intention) which He had previously purposed and set forth in Him, [He planned] for the maturity of the times and the climax of the ages to unify all things and head them up and consummate them in Christ, [both] things in heaven and things on the earth. (‭Ephesians‬ ‭1‬:‭9-10‬ AMP)

Received this Word in the middle of training. Gave me a big smile. :)

While I’m Waiting

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I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve you while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

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This morning, while pondering the things that are happening and unfolding, I realized that 2014 is slowly coming to a close. It’s been a year of surprises. New things happened which I did not expect.

Looking at 2015 from a distance, I’d say, I am all the more “clueless”, in a good way, in what’s in store for next year.

I have 100% pure anticipation and expectation from the Lord. Things are steady and moving in all areas of my life, so if something will end or start or move, it will be coming from the Lord.

And so the Lord reminded me of this song tonight, While I’m Waiting.

Indeed, I’m waiting for the Lord.

Lord, help me to keep my lamps full, and let my heart submit to Your preparations.

On Loop

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“I Lift My Hands”

Be still, there is a healer
His love is deeper than the sea
His mercy, it is unfailing
His arms are a fortress for the weak

Let faith arise
Let faith arise

I lift my hands to believe again
You are my refuge, You are my strength
As I pour out my heart, these things I remember
You are faithful, God, forever

Be still, there is a river
That flows from Calvary’s tree
A fountain for the thirsty
Pure grace that washes over me

So let faith arise
Let faith arise
Open my eyes
Open my eyes

I lift my hands to believe again
You are my refuge, You are my strength
As I pour out my heart, these things I remember
You are faithful, God
You are faithful, God, forever

I lift my hands to believe again
You are my refuge, You are my strength
As I pour out my heart
These things, I remember
You are faithful, God, forever

Let faith arise, let faith arise
Open my eyes, open my eyes
Let faith arise, let faith arise
Open my eyes, open my eyes

I lift my hands to believe again
You are my refuge, You are my strength
As I pour out my heart
These things, I remember
You are faithful, God, forever

And I lift my hands to believe again
You are my refuge, You are my strength
As I pour out my heart
These things, I remember
You are faithful, God
You are faithful, God, forever

Let faith arise
Let faith arise

Saving Faith

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How then shall they call on Him in whom they have not believed?

And how shall they believe in Him of whom they have not heard? And how shall they hear without a preacher?

And how shall they preach unless they are sent?

As it is written: “How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the gospel of peace, Who bring glad tidings of good things!”

But they have not all obeyed the gospel. For Isaiah says, “ Lord, who has believed our report?”

So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. (Romans 10:14-17 NKJV)

Lord, remind me of this Word as I go to work everyday. They need You.