Bakit December 24?

I really don’t know where to begin my post. It’s been so long since I last compose something worth reading.

Let me start by sharing to you that I finally understood why the Lord made my birthday just before Christmas day.

Well, you see, every year I will always ask the Lord why I was born on december 24. You see, I never had a birthday in class. I was always jealous whenever our class would sing birthday songs for the celebrants, because I will never experience it, bakasyon kasi pag birthday ko…not even now that I’m working. Also, not all people would remember my birthday. When I say people, these are my friends, churchmates and relatives. I observed that people who remember my birthday are really those that exert extra effort to put my birthday on their cellphone alarms to be able to greet me…on the 24th.

I even had an experience when my college discipler called me on the 24th to greet me…a very merry christmas! He wasn’t joking! he really forgot that it was my birthday! I really cried when the call ended. I mean…I wanted to feel special ON MY BIRTHDAY. But it’s just hard to compete with Jesus’ birthday.

I never had a celebration on the 24th. It was always before or after 24. I had my debut party on the 19th. And I remember celebrating my 21st birthday(second debut) on the 23rd. And I have learned to celebrate my birthday alone. Since my family is not really mushy and sappy. My parents would usually go to my room around 5am..they’ll give me a hug and lots of kisses. My sibs would greet me on breakfast and sometimes they’ll give me a gift. And that for me is already a celebration. But since, all my sibs are already married and living outside the country…I needed to adjust again…to learn to celebrate my birthday alone.

Last year, I spent my birthday at the metal box in UP. I thought I can celebrate my birthday alone, with a style. I went there at six in the morning to have my devotions. It was really a great time to reflect and meditate God’s faithfulness in my life. I also went to starbucks and did my usual birthday journal. But still, at the back of my mind…I was asking the Lord what was He thinking when He made my birthday on the 24th.

This year, I really planned to make my 25th year special. I was even planning to throw an acoustic night party for my friends, because I wanted to see all my friends again. But I didn’t have time to prepare, I was busy with our production and I had loads of experiments in the lab. I even planned to go to Singapore with a friend. But it also didn’t push through.

So in short, I spent my birthday in our house, inside my room.

It was even more simplier than last year.

It was simplier, but it was the most special.

I spent the whole day on my knees, celebrating my birthday with my co-celebrant…My Saviour. Then He impressed this in my heart,

“Jam, I made your birthday on the 24th, because I want your life to be hidden in my glory.“

“I could have made your birthday on any other month, but I chose that day, because I want it to be special for you and for me. It doesn’t matter if people will remember your birthday. The important thing is that I remember you, I know you and I want you to be in my Presence. “

And finally He answered my question.

Natahimik ako sa sagot ni Lord. I am special to Him…and just like David said in Psalm 73, “But as for me, the nearness of my God is my good.”

The Lord is teaching me a life that is hidden in Him. He cannot use me mightily if I will compete with His glory. He humbled me and taught me to give all the glory to Him…and to enjoy Him in the secret place…where He will meet me. Praise the Lord!

Just like I’ve said, 1/3 of my life is already finished. And as I looked back, those years were spent in school and university and a few years trying to figure out what road will take me to my ‘future’. Life was kinder and trial-and-error was still accepted.

But now…as I start my next lap. I know that I have to be WISER. I am the arrow and God is the archer. I have to let God prepare, polish and even to put me in quiver so that I will be able to hit the mark that is set for me.

I am now a young adult. A young woman of God.:)

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